Breaking up with Ricky was probably the hardest thing I've had to do recently. I know it's the right thing to do because we're just not compatible. I really loved him, but I was afraid of getting hurt, and he had such bad experiences with women, that I don't think we belong together anymore. We had a very bad fight recently in which both of us probably overreacted.
I just feel really lonely right now. After the amount of time we've been dating, I can't really remember what it was like before I met him, and it's hard for me to imagine my future life without him. I need to be strong and relearn what it's like not to be one half of a couple.
In happier news, I just got a promotion at work, which means I'm earning significantly more money than before. I'm looking forward to maybe buying a new place to live in the next year or so, and who knows what will happen. I jut need to get over the feelings of loss and sadness, but I think it might take a very long time to do that. I wish I could dream my way to healing.