Tuesday, June 21, 2011

Dream: Inviting Calvin Over Against My Parents' Wishes

Dreamed During the Night, June 20, 2011:
I was living in a house with my parents, although it was not a house that we had ever lived in during waking life.  It was late at night, and I invited Calvin to spend the night with me.  I snuck him into the house because my parents wouldn't have approved of him coming over so late at night.  It was strange because my house was very illuminated, even though it was past 11:00 p.m.  I thought that both of my parents were sleeping. Inside my bedroom, Calvin took off all of his clothes and lay in my bed.  His manhood was tiny and childlike, and the fact that he was significantly overweight only made it seem even smaller.  I straddled him, but I could barely feel anything.  That's when he said that he was hungry and thirsty and wanted to go to the kitchen.  He went out onto the kitchen completely naked.  I was worried that my parents would find him.

After a few minutes in the kitchen, I rushed him back into my room.  He asked me to go back into the kitchen to get his snacks.  I was repulsed because he was so fat.  When I went outside, my father was in the hall.  He told me that they couldn't find my mother's dog, which had been missing for more than an hour.  I told him that I hadn't seen the dog, but he said he was pretty sure that he heard the dog under my bed.  I told him I didn't think so, but he was already entering my room.

Immediately he saw Calvin in my bed and turned to me.  My father looked disappointed and asked me if I invited Calvin over.  When I said I did, my father said that I could do what I wanted.  My father lifted up the corner of my bed with Calvin in it.  My mother's chihuahua, my cat, my previous cat, my ex boyfriend's cat and a cat I didn't recognize ran out.  I was trying to remember the name of the unknown cat because it looked somewhat like Axelle's and Adria's cat, but I couldn't tell if it was definitely their cat.

Dream Analysis:
The weird part about this dream is that I haven't spoken to Calvin in many years.  I don't know why he suddenly appeared in my dream.  He and I last spoke on the phone in 2004 and last sent messages online in about 2008.  I fell in love with him many years ago, but he never loved me back.  From 2003 onward, our relationship was strained because he worked at the same place where I was attending classes.  We once considered each other best friends, but then he told me he didn't have time for me anymore.

My previous cat and my mother's chihuahua both died years ago.  I miss my cat terribly, but I never really had any kind of relationship with my mother's dog.  I think all of these animals being under the bed were just an excuse for my father to see the truth.  The truth is I'm a grown woman now and I don't constantly need to seek his approval.

The fact that Calvin was so ugly and fat and repulsive is just a sign that I need to have higher standards when dating.